I have debated this topic/post for about a month now. I have different reasons for sharing, but the one that matters the most is it could help or save someone else that may be dealing with this now or in the future. I am a private person, so it's huge that I am sharing this. *Disclaimer although I am sharing now that doesn't mean if you know me personally that I will sit there and talk about it with you.* I digress - as we know I had surgery in February. February 20th I left work, rushed to the doctors, and got admitted to the hospital. February 23rd is when I had surgery. February 28th is when I got a call that turned my world upside down. I got a call saying they removed the tumor, but it was in fact cancerous. My doctors told me it was rare before I went into surgery, especially because of my age, but it was possible. Unlikely, but still possible. The possible happened.
I was fighting a battle I had no idea I was fighting.
My doctors were going to do my surgery laparoscopically originally, but decided against it when it was time to do the surgery incase "the possible" was true and/or something ruptured. Thank god for that one decision. If it wasn't for that decision I would be writing a different post right now with limited time, but because of that decision I am here, alive, and well. I am thankful for the doctors taking their time, and always treating me like I was their daughter. I have new doctors to add to my roster - I will have to see an oncologist for the next five years to ensure I am in the clear.
My fight isn't quit over, and nevertheless I'll never stop fighting for myself and my future. I owe that to myself.
I always say listen to your body, but oddly enough this time my body didn't really tell me until it felt ready. So, now I will say monitor differences in your body whether it's pain or just something out of the norm. Nobody knows your body like you do. Don't ignore the little signs or push yourself too hard for an extended amount of time. Never ignore your own voice or body.
There has been a lot of emotions since I went into surgery, but mostly I just feel an unwavering sense of gratitude. I feel like I have a second chance to truly live the life that I desire. I am happy that I was able to catch this when I did and be here to tell my story. It is crazy that we plan our lives and then one decision or one moment can change everything. This put everything in perspective for me and shed light on various things. Don't let live just happen to you - take control of the things that you can control.
If I was to give you guys advice right now it would be: take care of your body you only get one. Don't wait for anything - make it happen. Your time is now.
**As stated above, I will be on this journey forever, but especially the next five years, so of course I will be documenting it along the way. The next step is another surgery, so when I get more information about that I will share. **