I have been on the fast track my entire life. I have always prioritized money or the "big" goal over every thing else. I have sacrificed a lot and have put my health/well being in jeopardy one too many times honestly. I don't know anything different than literally putting the bag first.
This year I am choosing peace.
I took a week off work and when I came back I realized that my current way of living isn't sustainable for me. Your body will tell you when something is off - and mine started screaming. I would hear a slack sound and automatically tense up. I realized then I’m not doing it for the love of work anymore it is just strictly for the money. I was putting living on hold to just make money.
After a meeting this week - I closed my laptop and said “this time I am choosing peace”. Money is important but it’s not more important than my peace. Now, for the first time EVER … I am choosing my peace over money.
I don’t know exactly where that will lead me, but I know its somewhere peaceful. It will probably be stresseful but I am stressed now, so what is really the difference, right? It is a scary situation, but I am not scared. I am not scared because I am betting on myself and I know that I am not going to let myself sink. It is not in my nature. So, why not? Why not trust that I can make it happen?
I had to remind myself of a couple of things:
Money is limitless and everywhere.
I never lose when I bet on myself.
I can have money and peace at the same time.
Again, I am unsure where I am headed or what is coming next but I do know the shit will be peaceful lol. So, welcome to the journey of the peaceful unknown. Let's see what betting on myself takes me.
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